I’ve found new meaning to my mission. Again, I wasn’t looking, I sort of just stumbled onto this fast and what it comes with and yet, the lessons keep showing up. I can’t be certain that all that’s coming my way is directly linked to the fast, but I think it might.
The week has gone by fairly smoothly. I’ve realised that want and need sex far less than I need to be held, cuddled and kissed. This may be common knowledge for a lot of people but it wasn’t for me. Everyone has been well behaved; there have been a lot of jokes made about the lack of sex and a few moments of frustration sprinkled into our everyday lives.
One of the reasons this week has gone by smoother is because we’ve had other bigger, more serious issues to deal with. We just got the news that we have to move house. That means the annoying process of finding a new home, paying a huge deposit and then moving our life. While part of the idea excites me (the home, new chapter), there are other real hurdles to cross.
Moving and its expenses is yet another reminder that I need more money in my life. Stressing about money is one of the many ways I drive myself crazy. So obviously it’s been put on E with this move. So instead of thinking about sex, or lack of it, I had other things to occupy my time.
What the past few days have shown me is that even without sex, my relationship is solid. The intimacy that sex brings isn’t the life line to our shared intimacy. That is a good thing to know for a fact and not one of those “I think…” situations.
While the week has been emotionally draining on quite a few fronts and has had me asking a lot of questions about my relationship, it has also reminded me why I’m here and why I continue to choose to stay.
#stillwinning.
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