I’ve known that I wanted to be a writer since I was a child. It is one of the things that I was immensely drawn to. I have memories of being sprawled on the carpet, taking in millions of words while I allowed the heat from the fireplace to put me in a meditative state. Years later, I get to write for a living which is something I am grateful for. I’ve never had to do any other kind of work, except for a short stint as a promotions girl in university.
What I didn’t know back then when I was lying on my parents’ floor is that writing isn’t for the faint hearted. I didn’t know just how many times I would hear that an article wasn’t good enough; I didn’t know how many hours would be spent questioning my ability and having to write any of my ego issues away. If you’ve ever done some re-writes (and I don’t know anyone who hasn’t), you’ll know that voice of self-doubt that can creep in and almost be paralysing if not exorcised with more writing.
I come to this point many times. Last year sometimes, I complained that I’d lost my voice, I didn’t even know what it sounded like anymore – this can be one of the downsides of working for a big brand with a definite writing pattern. I promised I would hunt for that voice, no matter how many badly written pieces would have to come out of me. I didn’t.
Now, I’m at a new job, still looking for my voice. You would think it’s not that hard to find but it seems to be for me right now. So like I promised myself last year, I will write every day, write stuff that has nothing to do with my work, just ramblings, random thoughts, random bits of writing because writers write right?