Day 2 - wine and celibacy are NOT compatible

Day two, much like day one went by pretty smoothly. Since I rarely get myself hot and bothered at work, celibacy isn’t an issue during the week when I’m away from my partner.
When I went home, I had a couple of glasses of red wine. Red wine has always had the same effect on me; it makes me drunk quickly and makes me really horny. Last night was no different but I only realised how I was self-sabotaging after my second glass.
The wine plus the fact that my boyfriend was being his usual charming, loveable, sexy self, did nothing for my fast.
Bedtime was accompanied by a lot of kissing, loads of “appropriate” (bordering on inappropriate) touching and quite an annoying amount of frustration. I was having internal conversations along the lines of “why am I actually doing this. I could just end it and it will feel sooo good.” I know better though – first off, my man won’t budge (at least not on day 3) and I’m not that weak.

So eventually I dosed off, slept peacefully and woke up feeling the same – damn you hormones and very healthy libido:).

On the flipside, an interesting potential side effect of this celibacy is that I’m feeling more in love. Granted I generally feel in love most of the time but there’s a little some extra that’s happening. I like it. I wonder if it really is linked to the celibacy thing, although it is too early to tell.

A Season For Fasting

I've become quite notorious at setting up blogs that I never actuall do anything about. Day one starts of with me being very excited about writing about things that have nothing to do with work. By day 3, I've lost interest and am going on with regular life stuff and complaining about how I never get to write.

So this is my attempt to finally change it. I'm trying to be more disciplined, on several fronts. Areas that require discipline:
1. Writing more - even though writing is what I do for a living, I no longer write. Soon I will forget how and then I wont know what to do with myself.
2. Smoking - I smoke too damn much and it's not a good look.

So while I'm learning discipline, my manfriend and I have decided to take fasting to another level. Going without sex for 30 days !

It sounds crazy to me but if nothing else I guess we'll see if we can do it.